Blood work (again!)

Thursday, April 21, I had my day 21 blood work again. I am still waiting for the results and will update as soon as we get them. Joseph is so precious to drive me because I hate going and parking, just to be in the office for like 15 minutes. We are in a major stage of waiting and waiting for an extended period of time just for my results causes me to be so anxious!

Daily struggles

Some days are so much harder than others (especially when I feel like I shouldn't be upset!) Today has been one of those days. Everything has made me cry and all the while trying to be so happy. A friend celebrated the birth of her newest grand baby and while I truly was so happy for her, I cried when she left the room because it hurts that it's not me. I think i often get upset more that i am actually upset than i am about what has caused me to be.
Oh how I pray that I can continue and always find contentment in Christ. That no matter what I will be satisfied in Him and Him alone.

Round 3

I started my 3rd round of Clomid today. 150mg for 5 days. I know it is nutty to think that it works fast, but I promise it sends a surge of emotions! (I was crying at DWTS within an hour!)  It has been a rough day anyway. Josephs uncle Dwight passed away and we had his funeral today. So needless to say my emotions are going haywire! I'm lying in bed trying so hard to keep it together when all I want to do is loose it and cry. I'm not exactly sure why. Nothing has "happened". But I am having moments of feeling down. The past 24 hours have been filled with lots of questions of when we plan to have kids, if we plan to, talk about future kids and it's hard. I don't know what God has planned for us. But I'm trying so incredibly hard to remember that HE KNOWS! And that is what is most important. He knows and has everything in control, even when I don't understand it.
This precious man doesn't always have the words to say when I get upset, but he does hold my hand and lets me know he is here. And that's all I can ask for.