Round 3

I started my 3rd round of Clomid today. 150mg for 5 days. I know it is nutty to think that it works fast, but I promise it sends a surge of emotions! (I was crying at DWTS within an hour!)  It has been a rough day anyway. Josephs uncle Dwight passed away and we had his funeral today. So needless to say my emotions are going haywire! I'm lying in bed trying so hard to keep it together when all I want to do is loose it and cry. I'm not exactly sure why. Nothing has "happened". But I am having moments of feeling down. The past 24 hours have been filled with lots of questions of when we plan to have kids, if we plan to, talk about future kids and it's hard. I don't know what God has planned for us. But I'm trying so incredibly hard to remember that HE KNOWS! And that is what is most important. He knows and has everything in control, even when I don't understand it.
This precious man doesn't always have the words to say when I get upset, but he does hold my hand and lets me know he is here. And that's all I can ask for.